Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Living Life in the Moment

As logically as I have appeared thus far, in no way to my feelings match up. When going through a breakup, you really feel like it is the end of the world. Every single fucking thing reminds you of the person, no matter how hard you try to avoid things that will spark memories. Every night you dream of the person, and every morning, you wake up and feel as if it is happening all over again. It has been over a month since my breakup, and these thoughts still haunt me and I imagine will for quite some time. I am surprised I have gotten this far. I considered suicide, as selfish as that is, because I felt like it was the end for me. It is not, and it is not for you either. My greatest advice is this: try to live moment by moment, day by day. This is essential. I have found that as soon as I begin to look to the future, I collapse again. I fall back to feeling helpless and lose all the strength I have gathered to that point. It is easy to lose hope when all you are thinking about is how you are going to be alone on Valentine's Day when you could have been with your ex. These thoughts are poisonous, and will certainly break you. The past cannot be changed, and the future is unknown. Just try to take each moment as it comes, and focus on the fact that nothing is wrong at this moment in time. It takes work though to develop that mindset, serious self control is involved that I previously had none of. The more I try though, I realize, the happier I am. And the happier I am in the moment, the brighter my future seems. You can waste time regretting the past and anticipating the future... or you can be happy in the now. It is entirely your choice (which brings up another topic I will blog about in the future).

To wrap this up, I leave you with some wise words from teh Bible. Even if you aren't religious, I hope it at least brings you a sense of peace. 

"God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it" (1 Corinthians 10:13).

You can and will get through this. You are strong. You are loved. 
With love, 

The Beginning

The beginning is the title of my first post for many reasons. First, it is really the beginning of my story. The beginning of my heartache, the beginning of my loss. I have decided to begin this blog so that people in similar situations as I can feel a sense of comfort. You are not alone. Your heart may be broken right now, but it will heal. You will grow. And that is the main reason for the title... it truly is not the end for you, for me, but the beginning. In this blog, you can join me on my journey of growth and rebuilding my life from the ruins my ex left me in. I will lay out everything I have learned, everything I have seen, and hopefully you can contribute so we can all grow and learn together. It is so important not to be alone in this time. When you have no one else, I will be here faithfully blogging. Until then, stay strong.

With Love,